6 months since i've been here, sure how times flies - and within these 6 months, there sure are a lot of changes that happened in my life. here's my story :)

firstly, yes, never in the world would i have dreamed that i would have gotten into my dream school: National University of Singapore (NUS). to be honest, this has always been my dream school but whenever people asked, i would never dare to say so cuz i was afraid people might think that i was being naive. furthermore, i came from a polytechnic and it definitely was not easy to get into such a prestigious university. rumour has it that only the top 10% of the students from polytechnic got in. i kinda heard of this since Day 1 of my polytechnic life. i never dared dream of getting into NUS. i remembered getting my 3 As and 2Cs in Semester 1.1 of my poly life. i didnt really thought much, since it was only my very first semester. when i saw the As, to be seriously honest, i was pleasantly surprised. when i was in secondary school, A was never in my dictionary. passing was kinda the main concern and getting a B was definitely already a bonus. juggling with track and studies was 101% tough, i have been through it in secondary school and i know it.

in poly, i was in a dilemma. knowing how much i loved sports and at the same time, how much i yearned of getting into a local uni. i finally thought it through. i told myself that i'd work as hard as i could. no matter whether i get into a local or private uni at the end of my poly life, as long as i knew that i had given my best shot - and then, i'd had no regrets. i knew how tough it was to juggle sports and studies, i've been through it. so i told myself that i'd focus on my studies. i just wanted to know how far i could go. true enough, after i got back sem 1.1 results with the 3As and 2Cs, i told myself i never wanted to see the C again in my poly life. in the remaining semesters, you cannot imagine how hard i worked not wanting to see the C ever again in my transcript. whenever i got a B grade for coursework, you just dont know how worried i was since i was just 1 grade away from a C. i really gave them my best shot and i knew how much a C could affect the CGPA that i had been working so hard for. yeap and in sem 1.2, i got 2Zs, 1A and 3Bs. till now, i still remembered when i saw the Z, i totally screamed. when i came into poly, i totally never thought much about getting an A and then i got As in sem 1.1, which spurred me on. i continued to work hard, hoping to get more As but never dreamed of getting a Z cuz Z was meant for the top 5 or 10% of the students for that subject. i dont think you all know how much it meant to me. in secondary school, i never dared aim for an A grade. passing was my main concern and getting a B, as mentioned, was definitely already a bonus.

when i saw that when i worked hard enough with no distractions - cuz i knew that i was going to be 100% committed once i joined track - i was actually able to score well. as i've said, deep inside, i've always wanted to get into a local uni but didnt dare say it out to anyone. i simply kept it to myself to the point that my parents even thought that i didnt even want to enter a local uni, since i kept saying 'at most i just study at a private uni, it isnt the end anyway'. actually, i said that cuz it was a way to comfort myself should i not be able to get in. i knew that the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, so i didnt dare to have much hopes.

i still remember the best result i ever got was in sem 2.1 with 1Z, 3As and 1B. year 2 in poly was one of the most memorable moments in my life. in secondary school, i've gotten prizes and awards for track but never, never have i gotten anything for academic reasons. most of the time when i got back my report book in secondary school, the first thing was to look at my overall position in the whole cohort. ask my father cuz he did the same, the first thing to look was whether i was last in class or last in the whole cohort (ahem, i never was!! yay :D). whenever we saw that i was not, we would laugh it out together. so when i received a letter in poly during my vacation, i just thought i was an event for the Business Interest Group (BIG) event - my poly CCA - that i was invited to join. i again, shouted out loud when i read on - i was on the Director's Honours List!!! i think it was in poly that i realised that if i worked super hard enough, i could actually do well. ever since PSLE and O levels, i already came to conclude that 'i never am good at studies anyway' but it was in poly that i found out that i can actually be quite good eh haha - IF and only if i worked hard enough.

after all that i had been through in poly. at the end of the day, i told myself that in that 3 years, i definitely gave it my all. as what everyone said and what i told everyone, 'i had no life in poly'. people asked me where i was going after school and i said i was going home. it was till a point when they gave up asking altogether cuz they knew that i was going home whenever anything in school had ended. after class, when we had a long break, especially in year 2, i was often in the library. looking back after graduating, i knew that whether or not i got into a local uni, i knew that i had done my best with 100% no regrets. no one could simply understand how happy i was to get into NUS. so it seems, my hard worked academic achievements paid off. at the same time, my CCA achievements also paid off.

no matter how tough it was in secondary school, up till now, i still feel that my life in Cedar Girls' Secondary School was the best time of my student life to-date. no matter how much of 'no life' i had in Temasek Polytechnic, i made the closest friends i could find now. it was only then that i realised that i could actually 'study' haha.

so now, 1 semester in NUS has gone by. to be honest, i felt like i was a lost sheep. time went by so quickly, week after week. one one moment it was mid-terms and the next moment, it was finals. i know i am not going to be able to do well in sem 1.1. sem 1.2 is coming up and once again, whatever poor results i may get, i will do my best to improve it cuz i know that i had not given my all in sem 1.1. i honestly felt very lost. poly and uni is a whole lot different - very, very different. even though the structure is the same - tutorials, lectures and mid-terms - in terms of level of competitiveness and level of difficulty, it is way higher. in sem 1.1 in NUS, i realised that the methods i used for poly did not work for uni at all cuz things are different. already having gone through sem 1.1 in NUS, i now have a rough idea how i should go about dealing with the upcoming semesters and my remaining 3.5 years in NUS. i wont give myself too much pressure cuz i know that too much pressure will only bring about a negative effect for me. i have already identified lots and lots of mistakes i made in sem 1.1 and i will work my way in improving them as i go on in obtaining my degree. :)

i know im definitely not going to do well for the first semester in my uni life. i know it - but i'll work hard in the coming semesters :) getting into my dream school does not mean this is the end of my hard work cuz i have not graduated yet. ;)

actually, not only this. other interesting things have happened in these 6 months too! hmm but dont think i have the time to write them now. will do so when i have the time again! :D not only interesting things that have happened, there are also so much more upcoming events to look forward to too! stay tuned! (that is if i have the time, or whether i feel like... hahaha)


ciao for now! (for now? or forever from this blog? i seriously dont know! i'll be here again when im free i guess) :) :) :) :) :)

yes, i will start loving my life from today. today today today. so means i have actually already started loving my life +)

dream school, desired course, flexible work hours, dogwalking at SPCA and TOUCH RUGBY (so it's confirmed!!!!!)!!!!!!!! omg what more can i ask for?! (okay wait, there's still my driving HAHA! BTT on 1st June!!! scaredy scaredddd...) i am literally living my dreams!!!!! how can i not love my life right now?! it's not possible! im totally loving it. what a great kick start to a whole new life and mindset. :)

however, one very disappointing thing happened today... i injured myself!!!....... and the "best part" is that i didnt even realise i've strained my muscle until i started running. -_- if people know me well enough, i am someone who is able to tolerate pain. so when the pain caused me to tell the guys that i've got to stop in the mist of playing touch rugby today, then it's gotta be kinda serious... it really is painful... i could barely run! now, i can barely walk properly -_- well, at least the position of the strain has been located, unlike earlier this morning when i didnt even know where exactly the strain was. so at least i can start focusing on that injured part, now that i have located it..

okay on a happy note, I FINALLY GOT MY RUGBY BALL PUMPED!!! papa bought this for me when he went to South Africa last year!! +) can start to practise passing the ball hehe.

okay, im greedy, i want the NEW ZEALAND ALL BLACKS ONE!!!!!! haha cuz they are who i really support +)

no no no, this is not a rugby ball but a rugby ball BREAD!!!!! OMG IT'S DARN NICE!!!!!! this was bought from BreadTalk in Beijing earlier this year! omg darn yummy manz! it's really huge for a bread - and i still ate it all HEHE :P told you im greedy! :P i havent seen it in Singapore yet though! really yummy and big hmm but a little ex to me!

yay finally bought my shades! bought it in Beijing! cheap and nice!! i like it!! it costs less than S$10!! okay but what is most interesting about this picture is the HALO ABOVE MY HEAD HAHAHA!!!!!! no editing has been done to this photo, it's original!! so y'all can slowly guess how this halo above my head came about! :P okok i know i aint an angel but i think this pic is quite nice and cool leh hehehe.

`really hope i can recover soon and play touch rugby!!! im really "dying" to play!! really love it loadssssss.

`BTT on 1st June!!! really gotta pass, or i'll be "deaddddd".

`JIAYOU SZE! :)

`now watching: Sisters Of Pearl aka 掌上明珠! not bad not bad this show not bad!!

havent been blogging as often as before eh but whatever, here i am now! >.<

im totally loving my life right now. :) :) i got into my dream school (my 20th birthday wish came true!!), i got into the course i really wanted, im fulfilling my dream of volunteering at the SPCA (finally after so many years!!), im finally able to handle dogwalking alone, i managed to get a job with such flexibility... hahaha so what next, touch rugby??! heh heh i'll update by the end of this week! :P (we'll see if i really do HAHA!)

so now that work has started (my first day today!), no more late nights! gotta start hitting the sack early cuz it really is hard to concentrate when i have a lack of sleep! i dont want to feel all puffed up too!! so yep yep, no more late nights! :)

`now watching: Beauty Knows No Pain, 女人最痛.
i thought this show isnt nice cuz i heard that the ratings in HK werent as good but but but, this show IS nice!! furthermore, some parts they mentioned about women seems sooooo true!!! >.<

`oh yes and i HAVE to mention this, DONUT is my number 1 favourite at the SPCA!!! :D :D :D yes, on one hand, i really like her loadssss but on the other hand, i dont want to see her at the SPCA again cuz i really hope that she finds a loving new home really really soon! she's simply tooooo sweet to be staying at the SPCA! she ought to find a loving new owner reallll soon! im so gonna make it a point to walk her whenever i have the chance now! :) :)